Archive for January 27th, 2008

27
Jan

Ahhh…Love!!!

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When your heart is overflowing with love, there aren’t enough ways to show your sincerity and depth.

Hon, I have only one life and I offer it to you. If I have a thousand lives, they will all be yours. My heart is filled with the joy you’ve given me. It also is bursting with the pain being away from you. I’m dying so much inside without you here. I will never give up; I promise this…as if my life depends upon this promise. There are no obstacles worth not fighting just to be with you. We will be one this lifetime it’s because it’s right…and we know it.We will fight any obstacle to be together…Yes, and I want to face my Maker with the news that I have met you and have finally become one with you.

Our love is so strong; there’ll be nothing in the way between us. Spirits and angels will always show us the way. Just as they made you come to me. I know deep down in my heart I’ll always love you…always…
till we part this earth and till we meet again in another life, it’s meant to be. I promise you I’ll give you a life filled with joy and love so that when we part from this physical earth, we’ll be looking back feeling contented that together, our earth has been a heaven…..

Do you know how much I’m missing you?

You always bring smiles to my face every morning when I wake up, I wonder how much you’re loving me today… will you still be there for me? Are you still planning on spending the rest of your life with me? Then, I feel your touch and you put my mind at ease. I want you forever not just a short journey. And I do love you…there’s no doubt in this. I feel your love each and every day. You don’t know how you keep my faith alive. It’s more than just our thinking. It’s more than just us texting each other. It’s more than all of these. It’s something I’ve wanted all my life.

Hon, don’t let this distance get you down and just remember you’re in my heart and mind. Maybe tomorrow will be a better day, and you don’t need to weep for you know I’m here waiting for you…Please just keep up your faith in me and know that all my days and nights are filled with you in my mind. You’re the driving force in my days and nights. I was thinking all day of your words to me and wishing so much that I could just come take you away now and not have to worry about these times we’re not together… I wish you could enter in my mind and take over my thoughts so you could know how much I love you dearly and that all my future goals are motivated by you and you alone. If you could be in there you’d come out feeling so secure that you’d never doubt my love for you…

27
Jan

One sweet dream…

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I woke up this morning with another dream again. We were on a boat in the middle of nowhere in the midst of a storm…If we tried to go against the current and if we moved vigorously in the boat, we would sink. But then, we just stayed calm, received the torments of the bad weather, and rode with the waves…And then bingo, we found ourselves on the shore. Together in bliss…I believe in you and I believe in our love. It would be so strong that we will win over harsh storms and devastating winds.

I hope I’m not living in a dream. If I am, then I would like to wake up with you by my side. That’s all I want for my life and nothing more. If not you, then there’ll be nobody. If not now, then it will never be. If not in this lifetime, then I’ll never be born again, for it will take a lifetime to find you…

I dream of you at night as I always do because your face is etched into my mind and it never leaves. You are a piece of artwork in my memory. Not a night has passed that I don’t have you in my dreams. And not a moment has passed that you are not in my thoughts.

Your love is worth the wait. I can’t imagine being with anyone else but you. It is what I want more than anything…so I can wait…I couldn’t ever imagine being like this with anyone else…don’t ever change the way you are now and foremost, don’t ever give up…

You are in my mind all day and all night. How could I be with anyone else but you? I could give up my life for you…But I would never give up my love for you.

Tonight, I am afraid to go to sleep because I would not want to wake up and then think it’s all but a dream…I’ve wanted this for so long…to be with you…I’ve dreamed about us together since the very beginning I have seen you.

Let’s find a cloud tonight and meet there…and hold each other so tight as to never let go. I promise I’ll never let you go…You’re mine from now till forever…

Goodnight then…And find me among the clouds…

27
Jan

Looking back… with lots of affection

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Five years ago… (Yes twas 5 long years ago) my XBF ripped into something fierce. He thought I was committing a major blunder, acting stupidity, and letting him and his family down. I sat in the car and took it, but was dreadfully mad. He was completely off base, he didn’t appreciate why I had made the decision, and he was a poor BF (then) to be so critical.

I went home mad and the next day was still mad. I cancelled our regular lunch because I was so mad. Sunday XBF called to see how I was. I was icy in my replies, clipped in my response. I was still smarting from my wounds.

XBF knew he had angered me, yet he felt he had no accession to apologize. What he did on the telephone that day, in person the next evening, and consistently for a number of days thereafter until I was through pouting, was to express his affection for me. He had been genuinely indignant at what I had done, he had told me so clearly and was glad he had, yet XBF knew that it had hurt me, and he understood my being miffed. It did not take many days of his affectionate displays for me to forget the whole thing.

I learned an important lesson from my XBF then. He was this: you can get away with many expressions of anger if you balance them with lots of expressions of love.

27
Jan

Talk is cheap…

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Talk is cheap, they say, but it is an essential ingredient in best relationships. I would like to share with you a story of a woman twice of my age or more, I call her red head (she is, literally), and I bet my sister could fairly recognize her. Two days back, she sat in my office with a sincere intention to confide. She had been married many years and had recently begun an affair with a single black man. I assumed that most of the energy in their clandestine meetings was sexual. “No” she said. “To tell you the truth, AJ (as they all call me for Alpha Juliet, which is my call sign), I’ve only slept with him two or three times, and it wasn’t all that great then. The reason why I’m so in love with him and want to be with him so badly is that we can talk. We discuss things for hours on end. Gosh! It’s great to talk to a man like that-to tell him everything that’s in your heart, and have him do the same with you. Why don’t my husband and I ever communicate like that?”

Well, there are probably a lot of reasons why she and her husband don’t communicate like that, one of which, to my personal stand point maybe that her husband does not recognize how important talk is. Maybe…

Of course, chatter does not necessarily lead to closeness. There are many kinds of talk, and mere flow of words between two people does not guarantee intimacy. Nevertheless, there can be no intimacy without conversation. To know and love a friend over the years, one must have regular talks. This may seem perfectly obvious, but I see so many close relationships break down because people quit talking.

You see, am the youngest in this organization, a Pilipino. Most of them, black or white, American, African, Britz or Asian alike trust me with their secrets. Little by little I am handed morsels of information personal, work or otherwise with which I could do them harm. Then they wait to see how I handle the TRUST. The cardinal rule of which I carry is, learn to zipper thy mouth.

Indeed, most of the people I worked with are highly professionals and well educated that they are very chary of advice. So, when they bring me their problems, at times, they may appear to want my opinion. They may even say they need my advice, they want to hear my personal point of view and so on… but most often than not, they will thank me for simply listening. Because I help them get the problem outside of themselves and on the table between us, their issues become clear and they are able to arrive with their own decision.